I So Much Wanted To Die - Delayed Grief

Note: This is about severe prenatal trauma, and if you are not familiar with this or if you are easily triggered please scroll on. It might just not make sense to you. And that is totally okay. You yourself know best what is good for you.

Crying.
Tears falling.
A fifty-seven year old grown up man,
mourning for something that happened fifty-eight years ago.
Finally.